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Communications from the emotional abuser are insulting, threatening, devaluing, mocking, controlling, critical, and undermining of self-esteem and worth. Often an abuser limits one’s access to friends and family or tries to induce a sense of mistrust in others. Since emotional abuse can occur in so many different ways, it’s often difficult for a loved one — or even the abusers themselves — to recognize the signs of emotional abuse. Making things worse is the fact that many victims of emotional abuse become “brainwashed” into believing that the abuser really cares for them.Most victims of abuse are ashamed. They may feel that they deserve to be mistreated or that no one understands how hard their boyfriend, husband, or parent tries to take care of them,” says David Sack, MD, the CEO of Promises Treatment Centers in California and the author of many journal articles on depression. Their abuser has often isolated them through intimidation. They are reluctant to trust others because they fear angering their abuser

Info from everyday health, Wyatt Myers

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     Its not that i think Hillcrest is bad place, in fact, its a great place to grow up. . . My mom went to highschool at hillcrest and my sister went to hilcrest! The crime isnt any worse then anyother schools, and drug problems arent even worse at Hillcrest than any other school, Its actually pretty safe. But its not the crime or drugs that turn me off to Hillcrest, its the lack of motivations teachers have.

    Just today i had a teacher say to me, the reason your group dumps the whole project on you is because your the scared one afraid to take an F. Following that awful speach he said maybe if you didnt care so much about what you looked like you would care more about your grades. Honestly i didnt care what he said about me. If he didnt resepct me i wasnt going to respect him. for the rest of the year i was going to mind my own buisness and talk as little to him as i could. But thats the problem. This has happend with many students. I know high schoolers can be awful, mean, and cruel. I know for one i could never be a teacher becaue of my lack of patients, i deffinatly couldnt handle it. But if you cant handle it, maybe you shouldnt be a teacher. I know a couple teachers who can deffinatly handle it. She is the best teacher ever. I always felt like i was learning something and when i struggled she got me through it. And im not the most focused person ever and when i would start to goof off she would always tell me to focus and i would because i respected her.

    I also feel like the teachers at Hillcrst have given up on us. They just give us busy work to keep us to keep our mouth shut we arnt even learning anything. Seriously sometines i feel like school is such a waste of my time. Im not learning ANYTHING!!! sometimes i wish school cared more.

hollyhocksandtulips:

Lip tester, 1940’s

black-tangled-heart:

Stefan Zsaitsits

Dandelion
oil on canvas
110 cm x 80 cm 
2008 

You could have just told me.

you could have just told me there was another girl in your life.

you could have just told me.

you could have just told me you were looking for better.

you could have just told me.

you could have just told me you didnt care any more.

you could have just told me.

you could have just told me you were sloppy drunk.

you could have just told me.

you could have just told me you slept with her.

you could have just told me.

you could have just told me she stole your heart away weeks ago.

you could have just told me.

you could have just told me you didnt love me anymore.

you could have just told me.

I know its a little early to be worrying about this now, but its something that’s been causing me stress for a while now.

a month ago i knew EXACTLY what i wanted. Everything was already planed. I was going to go to Missouri Southern, cheer,  and live on campus. I have been so excited. I have been on their website every day, and i set up a collage visit, i was even ready to sign up for my classes all was set and ready. i talked about it everyday… but that was also when HE wasn’t around….

I promised myself i would never stay for a boy especially after the umpteenth time breakup, I told myself that high school relationships were a joke! you may think your going to marry that person but your NOT! However it seems like every time he comes around i fall right back into the trap.. 

I didn’t have a choice though, it was either Missouri southern or living at home which was DEFFINATLY out, my parents must have sensed my stress to get out. So they offered me deal. Go to school here and they by my own apartment at the greens! MY OWN APARTMENT!!!!!!!!!! this is an awesome deal except for the fact that I’m still in this lousy town which i said i was getting out of.

That’s when the little voice popped in my head.The voice was persuading me to stay here, saying staying would be better for me, that i had my whole life to travel. this is where the confusion starts. I already had this planned out! why change now! why is this little voice causing so much stress! But even if i did leave would things change for us? 

Not that this little voice is the whole part of me changing my mind. What about Heidi? I cant take her to collage. But she could come to an apartment with me. And what about all my furniture? i could take that to an apartment i couldn’t take it to a dorm. 

I just dont know. And I know I dont have to decide tonight. But i fear that if that little voice sticks around long enough ill do what ever it tells me to.

I just don’t get why people make fun of me for being so girly. I really don’t get it. People always ask why are your finger nails always some shade of pink or why are you always so bubbly or why is there 30 tubes of lip gloss In your purse or why is your bag so big or why do you always wear heels or why do you wear extensions or why do u wear fake eye lashes? I think the real question is why wouldn’t I? I’m. A. Girl. It really gets on my nerves when I have to explain to people why I am the way I am, like it’s a crime or something. I know some girls are more feminine then some girls but seriously why all the questions. I feel like people should know why I wear heels. It’s a fashion thing. Fashion=girls. I don’t care who you are if your a girl you have your own fashion rather it’s sporty, preppy, indie or whatever you call it, it is indeed a fashion. And my extensions are part of my fashion they are an accessory, some girls wear headbands I wear extensions! They really arnt that weird they enhance my hair style. And guess what! My favorite color is indeed PINK!!! Why? It’s a pretty color and I like it! It makes me feel feminine! I’m not saying every girl has to like the color pink to be feminine but it always makes me laugh when people say ooooo your favorite color is pink? Of corse it is! WHAT what do you mean of corse it is!? I know I’m a girly but it’s because im a girl! Is that a crime!? People act like it’s a bad thing when really it’s just my human nature.

So.. I won’t be walking for a while lol

Happy single Sunday!!! Lol

Im tired of everyone treating me like the baby I’m 17 years old. No Kalynn you cant drive, it’s dangerous when you drive. Even though im currently in MY car with my older sister who is driving like a psycho because she is mad, she yelled at me for no reason and my boyfriend in the backseat sticks up for everything she does just cuz she is older and hotter and has a baby. It sucks! I mean do u want me to have a baby? Im just as capable of having one, but I know if I have a baby i will be the bad child even though it’s the exact same thing. And yeah I suppose I’m jealous of all the attention she is getting but the thing is I’m YOUR girlfriend. Whatever Idc.
Also I’m really mad she wrecked my car, and it’s really not funny it really upset me it’s not a joke. I’m just sick and tired of being sick and tired